Until I Come Back to Myself

This situation's breaking me inside
And all the joys of life now seem to hide

Until I come back to myself
I'll be this cynical someone else
I'm missing out on God's uncountable wealth
If I don't come back to myself

I try to do the right thing but I still feel down and out
I try to hear God's voice but all this silence gives me doubt
That God gives all the joy I need and He will make it shown
That through the darkness I will see more beauty than I've ever known

Am I actually asking You to give Yourself to me?
Am I actually seeking You, to find out how You're all I need?
Am I actually knocking hard on every single door I see-
to have the Holy Spirit open up the path You have for me?

Until I come back to myself
I'll be this cynical someone else
I'm missing out on God's uncountable wealth
If I don't come back to myself

I am made by the great God who made the stars
I am forgiven for rebelling against His laws
I am adopted into His fun family
I am supposed to be freed from looking to this world to be happy...

Am I actually asking You to give Yourself to me?
Am I actually seeking You, to find out how You're all I need?
Am I actually knocking hard on every single door I see-
to have the Holy Spirit open up the path You have for me?

Until I come back to myself
I'll be this cynical someone else
I'm missing out on God's uncountable wealth
If I don't come back to myself

This situation's breaking me inside
And all the joys of life now seem to hide