I walked home in the rain - but something wasn't the same. A little more wisdom; a little more pain; from more mistakes; from a slow scraping change.
I still walked alone. I now walked also for someone.
There are clouds overhead now. Dissatisfaction. Meaninglessness. Loneliness. Barriers. Vanity.
The forecast, however, is that God will repair it. We may hurt one another - even unintentionally, without knowing it. Yet Jesus is the physician for our sick hearts. He will wipe your tears away. We will see this day - later. For now, we have work to do, not for ourselves, but for Him.
I went back in time to 2006, to my blog post "How Much is Fiction?" Now and then: what difference is there?
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Jesus? lol... I'm curious - what difference would _you_ say is there?
ReplyDeleteJesus was there in each instance. Try again.
ReplyDelete(HINT: What is the difference in content x my approach?)
I know Jesus was there in both cases; I meant rather that perhaps by the second piece He'd had more time to work in you, to change you :) Possibilities related to that: the work of the Holy Spirit, and experience ("more mistakes", etc.) But I'll keep guessing:
ReplyDeleteIn the first piece, there is a "haze of fog", whereas in the second, it's "clouds overhead" (still there, but not obscuring sight). This could be related to your difficulty (if it is you in the fiction) of finding direction and purpose. In the first piece, you're seeking "the good way", but not finding it. By the second piece you seem to have more purpose and direction. You see that "we have work to do...for Him."
In the first piece, it looks like the focus turns in on the self. Whereas in the second, the focus turns outward - to God and others (note the use of "we" and "us"). With this, however, there comes the hurt from others - perhaps more specific than the seemingly more general pain in the first piece. Perhaps this is like the rain present only in the second piece - it's like in this piece there's more sadness but less depression (depression being like the fog.) There is also the difference that you "now walked also for someone" - though it is unclear whether this someone is God, "a woman [you] do not know yet", or someone else.
In the first you cannot find hope; in the second you have hope for the future, and it seems like more peace as well.
In the first you do not understand your lack of joy. In the second, it seems like you understand yourself better... and even if you don't completely understand, now "healing [is] in sight."
Then there's stuff like reflecting on the past, moving forward, seeing the difference, waking up sooner... but above are my main guesses. How did I do?
I see that you've caught a lot of the themes.
ReplyDeleteMy only comment is that the fog/clouds do refer to a lack of direction, but this is not related to purpose.