Entitlement?

Her life was a mess.
Then God changed her heart,
By grace He cleaned up her life,
And blessed her with a great husband.

But the other young women
at the church
were envious.

They would say,
"I've been a Christian for a long time,
Worked hard for virtue -
Why can't I find
A guy like that?"

• • •

I begin to wonder.

I have good desires,
For What and Why,
To be a mentor to others,
hopefully be a husband and a father,
to love with all my life, and be loved,
and help others grow in their walks with God.

I've learned that I'll need to trust
God for the Who, the Where, the How,
Until the When that each step must pass.

But now I judge for myself -
Is my Why really pure?
Is it for the fame of Jesus Christ?
Or for the honour and glory of my selfishness?
My flesh assumes that I will grasp God's blessings
if I do all the right things and know the right motives.
Which master am I really serving: Jesus, or Prosperity?
What am I entitled to?

What have I earned for all the work that I have done?
Luke 17:5-10
All the good that I have done earns me nothing;
My good deeds are the minumum standard -
What I'm supposed to do.
Romans 6:23
My work has only earned me
death.

God's obligation
Is not to give me blessings.
He uses the lives of His servants
For His own glory.

Decide, decide
for myself
to follow God
even if I won't get what i want?
Or will my only want become
to give Him glory?

He says,
"Do you trust me?"